my thoughts, as simple as that…

I guess i over think things… As i was at work todday (listening to Angel Haze - King) my mind kept racing. Thinking of everything. I swear, every possible thing ran through my mind. I kept thinking what would 9 year old Yae thinking of myself today? What about 5 year old Yae? Would she be proud? I work at a grocery store. I live with my parents. I don’t have a degree yet. It’s funny thought because I’m not upset with these things. Yes, I work at a grocery store… but I’m only nineteen. I’m still unsure of my career path. How the hell can go forth in something when I don’t know what it is. My parents are financially stable. Would they be able to manage without my income? Well they probably would. But with my fathers drinking addiction and my cousins mooching, & everyone living under one roof knowing the bills build up, it benefits myself and them to live at home. And I don’t have a degree, but I’m going to school and working towards that. But would she be proud. Would little Yae be happy with the decisions i’ve made? Would she look at me and smile to know that I’m the woman she has become? I mean I know we all make mistakes, some of the greatest people have made the most. But I can’t help but think that some things could have been avoided. I like to say that I regret nothing I’ve done in my life because it “made me who i am today”, but I’m unsure if i’m proud or even contend with the way my life has developed. I guess i simply over think things…

Anyway… goodnight.

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